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searching for a voice
Jan. 30th, 2005 01:46 amYou know, I've got things to post about...
just don't know how to say them.
just don't know how to say them.
they only come out at night
Mar. 8th, 2004 01:04 amThere are so many thoughts going through my head at this time of the night. I wish I could catch them & put them in a post, but that's often hard to do.
Last night I wondered if I was losing the ability to feel emotion as intensely as I used to do. I wondered if the saints of long ago were the schizophrenics of today. I wondered if one had to be tortured in order to be an artist. I wondered why these wonderings only show up at night.
I wondered many, many things. Things that I wanted to sit and discuss with someone. Unfortunately, no one else is awake when these things happen.
Last night I wondered if I was losing the ability to feel emotion as intensely as I used to do. I wondered if the saints of long ago were the schizophrenics of today. I wondered if one had to be tortured in order to be an artist. I wondered why these wonderings only show up at night.
I wondered many, many things. Things that I wanted to sit and discuss with someone. Unfortunately, no one else is awake when these things happen.
random nightime thoughts
Feb. 21st, 2004 12:16 am"When you don't want to feel, death seems like a dream..."
Don't panic, folks. I'm ok. Really.
But I understand the sentiment. I used to be there.
I'm just glad that I'm doing a lot better than I was a year ago.
Don't panic, folks. I'm ok. Really.
But I understand the sentiment. I used to be there.
I'm just glad that I'm doing a lot better than I was a year ago.
maybe it's just me, but...
Nov. 9th, 2003 01:42 amHas anyone else notice that their moods were out of whack today?
Think the eclipse is to blame?
Think the eclipse is to blame?
not much to say
Aug. 20th, 2003 12:56 pmI haven't posted anything for a few days because I don't have much to say.
I haven't been chatting with anyone online lately because I don't know what to say; carrying on a conversation hasn't always been easy lately. There's bouts of long pauses & I find myself fixating on certain things & repeating them over and over. I don't think I make much of an interesting conversationalist online lately, so I just hide & don't even strike one up.
So. There's the explanation for my silence.
I haven't been chatting with anyone online lately because I don't know what to say; carrying on a conversation hasn't always been easy lately. There's bouts of long pauses & I find myself fixating on certain things & repeating them over and over. I don't think I make much of an interesting conversationalist online lately, so I just hide & don't even strike one up.
So. There's the explanation for my silence.
You represent... angst.
You have an extremely cynical outlook on just about
everything. It's okay to sulk and be
depressed, but life is short, and you only get
one. It's only what you make it, and only you
can make it improve.
What feeling do you represent?
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so... i'm back
May. 25th, 2003 11:06 pmAnd since I've been back, I've been somewhat of a hermit.
The trip exhausted & frustrated me, and I've just wanted to sleep.
I looked for a few people online tonight, but I think most of my friends are either out of town or at BayCon. I'll probably call some of them tomorrow.
The trip exhausted & frustrated me, and I've just wanted to sleep.
I looked for a few people online tonight, but I think most of my friends are either out of town or at BayCon. I'll probably call some of them tomorrow.
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Sep. 20th, 2002 03:00 pmhow do you know when you've gone crazy? does it feel any different than before?
